| Its really weird, I've been thinking a lot about life and the people in my life and the people I miss. Its really weird to know that the only true friends that I have are back in Paso and one is in SF...
I remember sixth grade..when all of us met.. I seriously miss that!
We all have so many memories that we share and I miss them all. I realize now all the differences between us is just maturity and levels of experience..I have learned to cope with friends with boyfriends and strict boyfriends, I am so busy and I noticed the one person who I know that I could call, is no longer in my life, the one I felt comfortable telling everything, gone. I choose this and it was for the better, yet I will alway miss her, she was a true friend, yet we both begin to walk different paths and I was just so scared of moving...as always I do what I think will benefit me and help me and it did. I just dont know now, I miss the long talks. Maybe I am just being all weird, I mean I have some amazing friends now, but I will never forget her, or ever stop loving her, she is the one and only true friend that I have ever had. I trusted her with my life, among a few others and they know how they are.
I guess when I moved over here, I wanted to start over and that meant with new friends and try to be something I am not, well it didn't work out. your true colors alway show! Isn't it amazing how much you learn when you moved out on your own. It is! I know that i Have been through so much and it is just the beginning,yet I feel much stronger already.
Maybe this is the lesson I needed to learn? Maybe, just maybe! But I truly miss her and everyone else! Only a few more years and I will be back home. I hope that she is doing alright and everything in her life is going well.
I was also thinking about the days back at dan's house and derek and all of those guys. I miss Derek...ahhh he was the best boyfriend and again...i am stupid because I broke up with him...but I have learned from my mistakes and it was only to better myself. I know the things in the pass will only make me stronger in the long run...
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| I met a guy tonight..someone off of bulldog connections. He was nice, friend material for sure. Anyway, we hung out and talked..Nice guy...and nice car..hmmm...
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| So my mom and sister came over yesterday evening and I took them to boomers..we had so much fun. It was awesome. I haven't have that much fun in Fresno, yet! Anyway, we played miniature golf and of course stevie won but my mom and i scored. Then today we woke up and of course my mom woke up early and came into my room and she tickled me till i was awake. Finally I got out of bed and took a shower and she made ME breakfast (I do miss that). Then we went down to the fashion fair mall and went shopping for four hours and got lots of stuff. I just love AF, best store ever! It always smells so good in there.. I think the cologne they spray is Fearious, but its ahhh,just yummy! Also, i got three pairs of pants and a cute shirt..Then we went to aeropostale and i got a cute cute cute sweatershirt( I know its not winter yet but soon!). And to top it all off, we got little Caesar's break sticks afterwards. It was so yummy, I haven't eaten there in so long, i think its been like 4 years since they went out of business in Paso, but I sure enjoyed it! So, that was my wonderful weekend and now they left, So nicole is in Fresno alone, once again..hehe. But I think for the rest of the day I am going to go out to the pool and swim then go wash some of my dirty clothes! So thats all...
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| So. I just woke up and i have to call Victoria Secret today after 1 pm to talk to the hiring manager. Hopefully that goes well. Anyway, my mom and sister are going to be here tonight. Stevie wants to go school shopping here, so my mom is bring her up and they are going tomorrow. I will most likely go with them cause i have nothing else to do. It could be fun. I am trying to figure out where the Sierra Vista mall is but i haven't had any luck with that one..or maybe i did i just didnt think it was the mall i wanted to find? I dont know. But yeah I am going to go read my book cause im almost finished surprisingly! yay!
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| So, its been awhile since I have managed to actually update this thing! With moving and not having any kind of communication device other than my cellphone, it does make it quite hard to survive, lol. Anyway, so I moved up to Fresno August 1st and have been home more times than i can count. I just enjoy having people around, unlike Fresno. I mean this city is huge and has plenty to offer, but its too big for this little girl right this moment. I need to settle in, STILL! Finding friends and getting aware of my environment and Most of all SCHOOL. I am excited about making new friends, but what about school, seeing that I have a lot of time on my hands because I dont work yet, i think about what will happen next, and most of all, what will my classes be like? Are they going to be too hard to work and go to school all at the same time. Will i be able to make rent each month? So many questions and all the answers are sort of up in the air cause that time hasn't come yet. But on the good side of it all. I have to make up my mind about taking the job at victoria or hollywood. I mean both are awesome jobs, both just offer different things. To be realistic, I should just take the job at hollywood, but i want to work at victoria secrets too. I have some research to do on victoria secret, like what wages i would be offered and when are raises given, like monthly, yearly, and do the employees make commission if they are on the floor? and how many hours I would be getting. Too many questions but question that need to be answered. I just think that moving away and going to college is another step of NICOLE moving on to better and bigger things. I will struggle and I will laugh but i know in the end that I can't only learn from both the bad and good and hope for the best and strive for only the best and work my a$$ off to get there. I don't doubt myself, I just wonder how it will all play out. I know everyone wonders how it will all play out, but only if you could see a glimpse of your future, it may be a bad thing or good thing. I know that's not going to happen, but we can all dream right? I do.
On another hand, I met a few people online at a community thing the school has. We are going to meet up and hang out, sort of scared but excited too! Anwyay, i think i made this post way long and well maybe not seeing that I dont ever post. Sorry guys, I know i say that i will try to post more, but seriously I won't. I only do it on spur of the moment. I have to go turn another application into a hotel down the street, hopefully they call me, its a nice hotel. Well love ya all! ttyl.
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| | I am sitting here..yes still up when i should be asleep, but that never happens..anyway, I think i am going to go into work late so i can get more sleep! I will update later. I hope that I get to go to Fresno and look for a apartment asap. But if not then i will just deal with what I have. or not..lol stubborn nicole.. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Just thought since it was summer and all that I just might start my journal back up. I have been very busy so far... I work monday thru friday from 7-4 and its tiring..and boring as always, but not for long. I move to fresno in about 37 days or so....I am so excited, a new life and new people, yes it is sort of scary but it is a risk i am willing to take. I think that going to school there will be a new door opening with many opporunities, where will i work? I have no clue yet. I am going to worry about that when its about two weeks away from moving..I will try to keep you all updated but its not so easy to do so. I love you all!
Nicole | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I got a new job! YAY!...No more Foster Freeze..
Ps...Stevie's new cat keeps attacking me...ouch!
Luvs,
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